Quick update... Had my CD 12 u/s this AM, this time with a nice female doctor who I had never met. I was really hoping that doubling the Clomid to 100mg would push my body to get going a little sooner. No such luck. Lining at 6mm, 1 folli at 13mm. Last cycle on CD12 I had 2 follis at 12 and 13, one of which became dominant. I go back again on Tuesday, when "we'll know if its growing or not." More waiting. Shocker.
In other news, I am increasingly concerned about my weight. From everything I read on the HA boards, I am still extremely underweight at 5'10" and 130 lbs. I am trying to listen to my body and eat when I am hungry (and eat more). I have drastically cut down on exercise, only doing 30-45 min of light weights and walking 3-4 times a week.
Part of the problem is DH-- as much as he would never say so, I think he really likes the way I look skinny. Heck, I do too! And he also is a believer in listening to the medical professional. Since my RE has told me that gaining weight is a moot point, he thinks that I should just eat what I want, be happy, and not stress myself out worrying about gaining.
This morning, I broke down crying to him. I think it was a combination of my expectation that I would have more going on at the u/s, as well as the fact that he would have to work the entire long weekend, after we thought he would have it off. I held it together very well all day today while entertaining friends, but then broke down to my sister again tonight when I went to drop something off at her house. Poor woman is juggling 4 kids and then has me holding back tears on her doorstep. I quickly ran out of there-- I'm the last thing she needs to take care of.
Frustration all around. Heres to hoping Tuesday treats me better.
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I have to say, this is one area where the medical professionals have their heads up their you-know-wheres. I cannot tell you how many people on the board have had their doc say 'you could gain 50lbs and you still wouldn't get your period back' or, at a BMI of 18-20 that gaining weight or cutting exercise won't make a difference. They are WRONG. There are SO many people on the board who have gained weight and gotten their cycles back, or gotten pregnant through medical means where they didn't before. I think the fact that you're responding to clomid at this weight means that you might not need to gain as much as some (I needed to get to a BMI of 23 - that's 143 pounds, at 5 inches SHORTER than you!), but the weight you do gain will only help. The baby that's going to be in your belly needs nourishment! You wouldn't starve him/her after birth, you need to think of gaining weight now as not starving him/her in utero! You can always lose the weight after the baby is born, although I really do think that 120-ish at your height is just unhealthy in general. xox
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Meato! Thats hysterical and fitting. Yup right now I'm mentally OK with getting to 135. Every time I eat I think of it as feeding the growing egg (which hopefully will be feeding the growing baby soon)! BTW Nico, loved the kitty pancakes. So creative!
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