Why I'm doing this

I am starting this blog because I have so many thoughts in my head, and I feel like maybe this would be a good outlet for me. Party diary, part sharing.

I have spent the last 2 days reading Nico's blog (I have to figure out how to hyperlink) and I am not done with it yet. Its like a good book that you don't want to read to fast! I know this is going to be a hard road for me and its been fascinating to read about her struggles and successes. I know my writing could never be quite as witty, but I'll give it a go.

I am just getting started on this road of fertility treatments. I went off the pill in April '09, expecting to give it 6 months to get a normal cycle and start trying around my birthday 6 months later in October (get it-- DH's bday present to me would be a baby!). We were not super careful with protection but would have been thrilled if it happened early. In fact, when I didn't get my period one cycle off the pill, I didn't understand how the home pregnancy test (HPN) was negative! And we're if we're being honest, it was more like 3 HPTs...

...I should preface the next bit by saying that my sister is a doctor, so she gave me the start of an education about infertility and options available to me. The internet helped with the rest. Both have convinced me that I am young and I can afford not to skip steps in the process, as some doctors often push you to do...

So, I see my new Ob-Gyn, who wants to start unregulated Clomid but I decline, and instead ask her for a progesterone prescription, to see if I can get a withdrawal period. 10 days of progesterone felt ENDLESS -- well, you know how time crawls, if you've ever had infertility issues. Finally I get to the last pill. And wait. And wait. No period. Isn't it funny how you used to despise your period as an annoyance when you would get it? Now I would KILL for a period!

I gave the progesterone two weeks and made an appt with a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE), hereto referred to as "Dr. Fast Talker." Not because he talks so fast, but more because I couldn't get a word in edgewise. Dr. Fast Talker is nice enough, and wants to start me on Menopur, which I again decline, and ask for a low dose (50mg) of Clomid instead. He tells me that he does not think Clomid will work with Hypothalamic Amenorrhea (HA), what I have. We do an ultrasound and he finds one 12mm folli, which means my body is doing *something.* This makes him a little more optimistic about the Clomid.

My last day of Clomid is tomorrow, and sono on Wednesday. Fingers crossed.